life is like a runway , watch me walk

as the days goes by i wish real hard that there's no continuation to the post below

but i guess its just my 'luck' to face all this and nothing else but to suffer

i've regret enough of my mistakes to you and i've promise myself nothing will repeat again

and its a goal to me and whenever i call it a goal , i have to achieve it

and my goal are nothing else but to be the best for you , mell

i bet the incident that happen at la mode was the worst that i've ever had

truth is i really can't let u go and it really hurts seeing you contacting someone else

and to make it worst that person is attached. and it dissapoint me more

how would you feel when someone did that to your guy? i bet you burst even more

maybe to you that guy is honest, understanding and whatever shit

face the real world darling

honest? he wouldnt have 'naughty-ing' (-.-) with you when he's bf is away..

understanding? yes of course..

ppl call it honeymoon period and its not even 1 month u know him

to make things worst you made a promise to me that you will NEVER contact any guy

or to be exact getting to know anyone but why should you be heartbroken when he's attached?

come on lah dont u feel guilty when you told him that ure fucking heartbroken?

what a shame , sigh

never met him before but only at the party

but you guys met twice

never talk on the phone but just msg

end up missing his voice

haiz. totally wtffffff!

you're fucking 19 to think mell not 9. and i bet his old enough to think also..

no wonder gay community is a trash. blame this kind of ppl..

dont even have the respect for its own kind..

oh god there's alot more to be mention.. but why should i bother?

no point thinking when youre not the one they care about

and again , another wastage. sry but fuck you..

ive been having fever for the last few days and i couldnt even answer any calls
at the same time ive been thinking hard about dancebeatz cos i really want it
and so i did msg them about the pract that i wanted to make
but afterall another plain wastage
nothing else that i could do but to see them achieve something at the end of the day
and to the people that have been searching for me im trully sorry that i didnt get back to you guys. i just need my time and im too weak for anything else
and to you.. sry i didnt reply your msg cos i was really sick..
but no worries i will get back to you okaye? n imissyoutoo..
i just got the feeling that im not gg for jalan raya this saturday
and nothing can help but just the tears that drops..
for 3 days now i've been shivering to sleep at the sametime looking at my phone
nonstop that mell would msg me. but i guess its just a dream for me now
the medicine for me now is just him.. a simple msg or a call sounds better..
i terribly miss him and sigh.. its just him that i want now..

MELL

i hope you're doing well now without me disturbing your life anymore
and i know it makes your life soo much better but whatever it is
i have to accept the fact that its reza that you care about now
i accept that and that's the reason why i chose to leave everything behind..
but please remember what i told you kaye , sayang?
i dont want people to blame you for any reason if anything happens
and take care of urself wherever you are
im sorry for the harsh words and the harsh acts
im just too care for you
i've forgotten everything of what happened..
dont mind the earlier paragraph cos its just something that i need to let it out
and thats why i made this private cos i dont want ppl to know but only you me and ling
if you're reading this baby.... im suffering without you......
my days and nights are to just wait for you to comeback..
even how hard they try to make me happy.. but i guess its only you who can make it happen. but i know now you totally dont want me anymore..
but i just want you to know , i thank you for everything..
for everything that you did to make me happy all this while..
its time for you to be happy ok?
last but not least ,
your clothes are my company for the night
your clothes are my towel for my tears

imissyou , boo...