i've made the decision to be far away
deep inside only god knows how dreadful it is
but im doing it bcos i dont want mell to suffer anymore
ive made a mistake by giving him the worse out of me
cos my initial deeds is to let him encounter the worse out of me first
and have the best till the end
but it seems that i have to leave the best to no where
cos im the worse boyfriend/friend that he ever had
and i dont wanna make him cry anymore
ISMAEL KHAN SURATTEE
the best soul for me that its too hard
for me to accept the fact that i need to let go
i've never regret all the times spent cos i know you're all i wanted
even if im the worse boyfriend that you ever had
maybe all the dreams of the best for you is long gone
but deep inside i will still keep the best for you
cos thats my goal and i've yet to achieve it
im left with nothing but only the memories that will only make me cry
maybe i deserve this and a lesson to be learn and i accept it
but nevertheless , the memories will always be kept n never i will forget it
let my tears be my company from now on cos i know i cant move on
truth is im weak
even if i were to be the biggest bitch and make ur life miserable
it wasnt me
as much as im looking forward for raya its all meaning-less now
the white kurung is just a meaning-less suit
the least i could do is to imagine everytime im out for raya that you are there
definitely tears will drop when takbir is up
and all are left with me now is just the raya song that will only makes me weaker
tears will be my company for raya and everything else
to worsen it , raya falls on our anniversary...
im too weak to rant but the best i could do now is
to keep myself away from everything
mum saw me cried and to my surprise she know thats im having a rough time with him
and i thought the situation gonna be worse since she know it
but instead she made me a cup of milo and said this..
' i know you're scared that i know whats gg on but to see you cry will only show how much it meant to you. i will keep this to myself as long as you know what you're doing. ' ( translated )
and by then the tears is unstoppable..
i thank you for understandin mum
you make me stronger. yet im still as weak as ever..
and mell from the bottom of my heart im trully sorry for the past
please forgive me and thanks for everything that you did for me
please take care of yourself and i wanna see you do well in dance
but most importantly please take care of mami..
cos she's like my mum too..
u may not see that but thats the reason why i never fail to ask about her
and i really appreciate that she trust me to look after you
but now.. i dissapoint her in a way i hurt you..
how can i not feel useless when all i did was the worse..
Ya Allah
please stop this tears please..
and please look after him for me
and not forgetting his family..
deep inside only god knows how dreadful it is
but im doing it bcos i dont want mell to suffer anymore
ive made a mistake by giving him the worse out of me
cos my initial deeds is to let him encounter the worse out of me first
and have the best till the end
but it seems that i have to leave the best to no where
cos im the worse boyfriend/friend that he ever had
and i dont wanna make him cry anymore
ISMAEL KHAN SURATTEE
the best soul for me that its too hard
for me to accept the fact that i need to let go
i've never regret all the times spent cos i know you're all i wanted
even if im the worse boyfriend that you ever had
maybe all the dreams of the best for you is long gone
but deep inside i will still keep the best for you
cos thats my goal and i've yet to achieve it
im left with nothing but only the memories that will only make me cry
maybe i deserve this and a lesson to be learn and i accept it
but nevertheless , the memories will always be kept n never i will forget it
let my tears be my company from now on cos i know i cant move on
truth is im weak
even if i were to be the biggest bitch and make ur life miserable
it wasnt me
as much as im looking forward for raya its all meaning-less now
the white kurung is just a meaning-less suit
the least i could do is to imagine everytime im out for raya that you are there
definitely tears will drop when takbir is up
and all are left with me now is just the raya song that will only makes me weaker
tears will be my company for raya and everything else
to worsen it , raya falls on our anniversary...
im too weak to rant but the best i could do now is
to keep myself away from everything
mum saw me cried and to my surprise she know thats im having a rough time with him
and i thought the situation gonna be worse since she know it
but instead she made me a cup of milo and said this..
' i know you're scared that i know whats gg on but to see you cry will only show how much it meant to you. i will keep this to myself as long as you know what you're doing. ' ( translated )
and by then the tears is unstoppable..
i thank you for understandin mum
you make me stronger. yet im still as weak as ever..
and mell from the bottom of my heart im trully sorry for the past
please forgive me and thanks for everything that you did for me
please take care of yourself and i wanna see you do well in dance
but most importantly please take care of mami..
cos she's like my mum too..
u may not see that but thats the reason why i never fail to ask about her
and i really appreciate that she trust me to look after you
but now.. i dissapoint her in a way i hurt you..
how can i not feel useless when all i did was the worse..
Ya Allah
please stop this tears please..
and please look after him for me
and not forgetting his family..
